I know you don't. It's pretty scary, you know, but I'm not going to let it overwhelm me. We wouldn't be here if it was impossible to change those echoes of another life. So I know... you would't try to do something like that.
Two... I don't know her that well. She hasn't been in many of my dreams. But she seems happy, innocent. That's what I see in her.
Yes, I wouldn't have expected her to do something like that based on personality alone.
I don't think she was a bad person, Lina.
[Of the sisters she remembers, Two might have even been the least likely to do something like that. That's a terrible thought, Jasmine things, but pragmatic, so understand how these women behaved.]
I wish I could say that you should just treat it like a bad dream, but I don't want to lie to you. No one's found any way to "lose" these memories once they're recalled.
even if we could get rid of them, Retrospec wouldn't be very happy about it. since we're supposed to be the seeds of a new... whatever. it's been so long since i read the document that one of the other people put together that it's all running together in my head and i don't like thinking about it much anyway.
it was easier to think about when it was all just a theory and none of it was actually happening to me.
[she sighs. she knows she's in over her head. she wants to lean on her sisters for help, but it's almost impossible for her to get over everything going on in her head enough to admit exactly how much help she needs right now.]
i trust you. i trust all of you, because you all know so much more about this than i do. but if i have to live with this memory then the one thing that's bothering me is where it fits in with everything else. it doesn't match up with your letter.
We don't really know what it happened, do we? To understand everything that happened we'd probably need a timeline.
[Though, that does remind her of something...]
Lina, this is going to sound weird.
What did I look like in your memories? When we spent time together?
[She's redirecting from Lina's latest, horrific memory.One's Brother was almost a teenager in appearance, and he was supposed to be modeled in her image. For Jasmine, almost 24 now, it's strange to see herself in him. And yet...]
[she sees what Jasmine is doing, but the problem is that the clearest memory she has of One so far is the exact memory she's trying to avoid. One was there during the incident with Michael, but hardly the focus of the memory. so she'll have to take a moment.]
short blonde hair. tall boots. some kind of cape. white clothes.
[mostly white. she can't really bring herself type more.]
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two was dancing around one's body. on a stake. and laughing about it.
two killed one and i think she liked doing it.
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Thank you for telling me so directly. It's better not to go around it, isn't it?
Still... Even from what I've seen, that doesn't seem like who she was.
[Two was bubbly, self-conscious...fragile, she thinks, less positively.]
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i hope it isn't. i don't want it to be. i don't want to hurt any of you, you're my family and i love all of you so much
[she inhales and tries not to think about the memory or seeing it whenever she closes her eyes.]
was two normally like me?
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Two... I don't know her that well. She hasn't been in many of my dreams. But she seems happy, innocent. That's what I see in her.
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so this isn't what she's normally like. something must have happened.
i don't want to know what changed her. i don't want answers for this. i just want to stop seeing it and thinking about it.
do you just live with having to see what you remember?
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I don't think she was a bad person, Lina.
[Of the sisters she remembers, Two might have even been the least likely to do something like that. That's a terrible thought, Jasmine things, but pragmatic, so understand how these women behaved.]
I wish I could say that you should just treat it like a bad dream, but I don't want to lie to you. No one's found any way to "lose" these memories once they're recalled.
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it was easier to think about when it was all just a theory and none of it was actually happening to me.
[she sighs. she knows she's in over her head. she wants to lean on her sisters for help, but it's almost impossible for her to get over everything going on in her head enough to admit exactly how much help she needs right now.]
i trust you. i trust all of you, because you all know so much more about this than i do. but if i have to live with this memory then the one thing that's bothering me is where it fits in with everything else. it doesn't match up with your letter.
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[Though, that does remind her of something...]
Lina, this is going to sound weird.
What did I look like in your memories? When we spent time together?
[She's redirecting from Lina's latest, horrific memory.One's Brother was almost a teenager in appearance, and he was supposed to be modeled in her image. For Jasmine, almost 24 now, it's strange to see herself in him. And yet...]
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short blonde hair. tall boots. some kind of cape. white clothes.
[mostly white. she can't really bring herself type more.]