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hi.
i'm sorry. i didn't know. i'll be more careful.
and this isn't going to be easy to tell you, but i told you i wouldn't keep any secrets from you. it's about us. or, um. one and two.
i'm sorry. i didn't know. i'll be more careful.
and this isn't going to be easy to tell you, but i told you i wouldn't keep any secrets from you. it's about us. or, um. one and two.
It's okay. We didn't talk about this as much as I should have, and you deserve a place to talk about what you know.
Take your time.
Take your time.
[it's too late, Lina's going to blame herself for everything. including this.]
two was dancing around one's body. on a stake. and laughing about it.
two killed one and i think she liked doing it.
two was dancing around one's body. on a stake. and laughing about it.
two killed one and i think she liked doing it.
[Well Christ okay.]
Thank you for telling me so directly. It's better not to go around it, isn't it?
Still... Even from what I've seen, that doesn't seem like who she was.
[Two was bubbly, self-conscious...fragile, she thinks, less positively.]
Thank you for telling me so directly. It's better not to go around it, isn't it?
Still... Even from what I've seen, that doesn't seem like who she was.
[Two was bubbly, self-conscious...fragile, she thinks, less positively.]
[it takes Lina a little while to be brave enough to look at her phone again after she says that.]
i hope it isn't. i don't want it to be. i don't want to hurt any of you, you're my family and i love all of you so much
[she inhales and tries not to think about the memory or seeing it whenever she closes her eyes.]
was two normally like me?
i hope it isn't. i don't want it to be. i don't want to hurt any of you, you're my family and i love all of you so much
[she inhales and tries not to think about the memory or seeing it whenever she closes her eyes.]
was two normally like me?
I know you don't. It's pretty scary, you know, but I'm not going to let it overwhelm me. We wouldn't be here if it was impossible to change those echoes of another life. So I know... you would't try to do something like that.
Two... I don't know her that well. She hasn't been in many of my dreams. But she seems happy, innocent. That's what I see in her.
Two... I don't know her that well. She hasn't been in many of my dreams. But she seems happy, innocent. That's what I see in her.
[happy, sure. innocent?]
so this isn't what she's normally like. something must have happened.
i don't want to know what changed her. i don't want answers for this. i just want to stop seeing it and thinking about it.
do you just live with having to see what you remember?
so this isn't what she's normally like. something must have happened.
i don't want to know what changed her. i don't want answers for this. i just want to stop seeing it and thinking about it.
do you just live with having to see what you remember?
Yes, I wouldn't have expected her to do something like that based on personality alone.
I don't think she was a bad person, Lina.
[Of the sisters she remembers, Two might have even been the least likely to do something like that. That's a terrible thought, Jasmine things, but pragmatic, so understand how these women behaved.]
I wish I could say that you should just treat it like a bad dream, but I don't want to lie to you. No one's found any way to "lose" these memories once they're recalled.
I don't think she was a bad person, Lina.
[Of the sisters she remembers, Two might have even been the least likely to do something like that. That's a terrible thought, Jasmine things, but pragmatic, so understand how these women behaved.]
I wish I could say that you should just treat it like a bad dream, but I don't want to lie to you. No one's found any way to "lose" these memories once they're recalled.
even if we could get rid of them, Retrospec wouldn't be very happy about it. since we're supposed to be the seeds of a new... whatever. it's been so long since i read the document that one of the other people put together that it's all running together in my head and i don't like thinking about it much anyway.
it was easier to think about when it was all just a theory and none of it was actually happening to me.
[she sighs. she knows she's in over her head. she wants to lean on her sisters for help, but it's almost impossible for her to get over everything going on in her head enough to admit exactly how much help she needs right now.]
i trust you. i trust all of you, because you all know so much more about this than i do. but if i have to live with this memory then the one thing that's bothering me is where it fits in with everything else. it doesn't match up with your letter.
it was easier to think about when it was all just a theory and none of it was actually happening to me.
[she sighs. she knows she's in over her head. she wants to lean on her sisters for help, but it's almost impossible for her to get over everything going on in her head enough to admit exactly how much help she needs right now.]
i trust you. i trust all of you, because you all know so much more about this than i do. but if i have to live with this memory then the one thing that's bothering me is where it fits in with everything else. it doesn't match up with your letter.
We don't really know what it happened, do we? To understand everything that happened we'd probably need a timeline.
[Though, that does remind her of something...]
Lina, this is going to sound weird.
What did I look like in your memories? When we spent time together?
[She's redirecting from Lina's latest, horrific memory.One's Brother was almost a teenager in appearance, and he was supposed to be modeled in her image. For Jasmine, almost 24 now, it's strange to see herself in him. And yet...]
[Though, that does remind her of something...]
Lina, this is going to sound weird.
What did I look like in your memories? When we spent time together?
[She's redirecting from Lina's latest, horrific memory.One's Brother was almost a teenager in appearance, and he was supposed to be modeled in her image. For Jasmine, almost 24 now, it's strange to see herself in him. And yet...]
[she sees what Jasmine is doing, but the problem is that the clearest memory she has of One so far is the exact memory she's trying to avoid. One was there during the incident with Michael, but hardly the focus of the memory. so she'll have to take a moment.]
short blonde hair. tall boots. some kind of cape. white clothes.
[mostly white. she can't really bring herself type more.]
short blonde hair. tall boots. some kind of cape. white clothes.
[mostly white. she can't really bring herself type more.]
Heyo, roomie, I got a bite!
But there's a catch.
She, also, wants to know more about you so I took down some questions from her to you so she can go into this less-than-blind date on the right foot. That's promising if you ask me!
In turn, gimme some questions and I'll pass them on. Sound good?
Okay, here we go!
1) "What are your biggest interests?" hard mode: I already told her about the cooking you do for me but not like your day jobs, so pick something else
2) "Are there any places off-limits for a first date?" pro tip: don't just go to a bar. far too easy to bail from, IMHO
3) "Any foods to avoid?" I didn't want to answer this one for you, since I've seen you work with a lot of stuff, but I don't know if you're allergic to anything. I probably should have asked this too, huh...
But there's a catch.
She, also, wants to know more about you so I took down some questions from her to you so she can go into this less-than-blind date on the right foot. That's promising if you ask me!
In turn, gimme some questions and I'll pass them on. Sound good?
Okay, here we go!
1) "What are your biggest interests?" hard mode: I already told her about the cooking you do for me but not like your day jobs, so pick something else
2) "Are there any places off-limits for a first date?" pro tip: don't just go to a bar. far too easy to bail from, IMHO
3) "Any foods to avoid?" I didn't want to answer this one for you, since I've seen you work with a lot of stuff, but I don't know if you're allergic to anything. I probably should have asked this too, huh...
this is the least blind date i've ever seen
but this is what i wanted to happen so like sure
1) other than cooking? kind of pulled the rug out from under me on this one jen. j-metal (passcode, lovebites, band maid but not in a creepy way, you know), action anime with like mecha and stuff, gacha games i guess? i had a good conversation with someone on the app about them recently even if it was mostly just me yelling about her boyfriend and his waifus. fuck, i sound like an enormous weeb. i'm trusting you to pretty this answer up.
2) i mean yeah there's probably like a whole tier of places that's appropriate for first dates? and everything not on that tier is probably a bad idea. like it shouldn't be too fancy of a restaurant but it sure as hell shouldn't be fast food. bars are skeezy and there are better places to go to get to know someone. movies also sound pretty easy to bail from. every place sounds easy to bail from if you're bad enough at dating.
3) none of the big 8 food allergens at least. that covers like what, most of food? i should be fine with anything is the point.
you really didn't have to go through all this trouble. i'll, um. i'll come up with questions of my own and let you know.
but this is what i wanted to happen so like sure
1) other than cooking? kind of pulled the rug out from under me on this one jen. j-metal (passcode, lovebites, band maid but not in a creepy way, you know), action anime with like mecha and stuff, gacha games i guess? i had a good conversation with someone on the app about them recently even if it was mostly just me yelling about her boyfriend and his waifus. fuck, i sound like an enormous weeb. i'm trusting you to pretty this answer up.
2) i mean yeah there's probably like a whole tier of places that's appropriate for first dates? and everything not on that tier is probably a bad idea. like it shouldn't be too fancy of a restaurant but it sure as hell shouldn't be fast food. bars are skeezy and there are better places to go to get to know someone. movies also sound pretty easy to bail from. every place sounds easy to bail from if you're bad enough at dating.
3) none of the big 8 food allergens at least. that covers like what, most of food? i should be fine with anything is the point.
you really didn't have to go through all this trouble. i'll, um. i'll come up with questions of my own and let you know.
[ rubbing her forehead. hoo boy, this will take even more work. hurray! she's not even able to sit down and appreciate any of this information on a personal level because of that, so she'll have to look into it later. ]
Don't worry about it. I think I can work with this.
Just call me cupid!
Or at least, call me committed.
I'm just going to ask her to answer the same questions in return.
Seems fair, right?
You can save the rest for the actual date. Call it thinking ahead.
Don't worry about it. I think I can work with this.
Just call me cupid!
Or at least, call me committed.
I'm just going to ask her to answer the same questions in return.
Seems fair, right?
You can save the rest for the actual date. Call it thinking ahead.
a week ago i would've thought you needed to be committed for trying to hook me up with someone
i know those answers were shit, i know i don't do a lot that isn't nerdy garbage or cooking, i know i'm asking a lot of you
i'm still working on dealing with you being this nice to me
i know those answers were shit, i know i don't do a lot that isn't nerdy garbage or cooking, i know i'm asking a lot of you
i'm still working on dealing with you being this nice to me
It's not like I'm making any guarantees here.
She still has to say yes.
But if I didn't try to help you make a dent in all that negativity I'd be a terrible role model.
She still has to say yes.
But if I didn't try to help you make a dent in all that negativity I'd be a terrible role model.
don't tell me YOU'RE trying to be my sun
I'm going to be a star someday.
That's like being a lot of people's suns.
[ so she's not saying "no", but avoiding going back to that analogy. ugh, why did she bring it up in the first place? she didn't like the dude THAT much. ]
That's like being a lot of people's suns.
[ so she's not saying "no", but avoiding going back to that analogy. ugh, why did she bring it up in the first place? she didn't like the dude THAT much. ]
Anyway, Alison answered back. I think you'll do fine!
She's got the same idea as you for dating places, so no problems there.
A wide culinary pallet.
She loves the outdoors, museums, zoos. Traveling too. (She even wants to go to Japan someday. Bonus!)
Oh, and she knows a thing or three about making robots. That could be a fun topic to bring up.
Give me the green light to pass on your number, and I'll let you two take it from there. Deal?
She's got the same idea as you for dating places, so no problems there.
A wide culinary pallet.
She loves the outdoors, museums, zoos. Traveling too. (She even wants to go to Japan someday. Bonus!)
Oh, and she knows a thing or three about making robots. That could be a fun topic to bring up.
Give me the green light to pass on your number, and I'll let you two take it from there. Deal?
...huh.
maybe this won't be a disaster.
all right yeah give her my number, we'll see where this takes us.
maybe this won't be a disaster.
all right yeah give her my number, we'll see where this takes us.
[ F I N A L L Y ]
Great! Look forward to hearing from her soon.
Oh, by the way, I already sent her your photo. She thinks you're cute.
Just a little thing to prep you for the encounter.
See you later~!
Great! Look forward to hearing from her soon.
Oh, by the way, I already sent her your photo. She thinks you're cute.
Just a little thing to prep you for the encounter.
See you later~!
[this is so awkward. why is she even doing this, she doesn't even really like Jen.
Her other self had done things like this though, right? Sort of. (Not really.) Gone around helping people for no conceivable reason or benefit, and she was a stone cold badass. Maybe a lesson could be learned from her.]
hey
lina?
this is alison, a friend [:/] of jen's
Her other self had done things like this though, right? Sort of. (Not really.) Gone around helping people for no conceivable reason or benefit, and she was a stone cold badass. Maybe a lesson could be learned from her.]
hey
lina?
this is alison, a friend [:/] of jen's
you did WHAT
god i hope it was at least a good one
thanks. i guess. maybe i should hold off until the end of this date before i decide if i should thank you
god i hope it was at least a good one
thanks. i guess. maybe i should hold off until the end of this date before i decide if i should thank you
[shit. why is this the thing that Jen actually followed through on? Lina had been dead certain up until this message showed up that her roommate had just forgotten about it like she forgot about most other things that seemed cool and shiny at the time.]
oh right!
hello
i'm sorry about how sudden all of this has been
[which is of course one way to phrase it. Lina has no idea where to go from here and ends up deleting something self-deprecating before settling on another pleasantry.]
it's nice to meet you
oh right!
hello
i'm sorry about how sudden all of this has been
[which is of course one way to phrase it. Lina has no idea where to go from here and ends up deleting something self-deprecating before settling on another pleasantry.]
it's nice to meet you
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