[ Jen shrugged her other shoulder and turned her head to the side so she could watch what Lina was doing so it wouldn't feel as foreign to her. the muscles were built up from her training but oddly... firm. atrophy is a common side effect of all this but she obviously did a lot to keep herself from looking lopsided beyond the obvious. the skin itself is still damp with sweat but also quite rough despite that, especially now around the indentations the new socket leaves her with. they're barely visible with how long it's been off, but easy to feel. ]
Sorry. I'm not holding that worry against you. Just. Most people - okay pretty much no one goes near it unless they're my doctor or trainer.
[of course she did a lot to keep herself looking this way. Lina knows now that Jen puts so, so much effort into everything she does, that this whole time she's been thinking of her dead wrong and there's nothing easy or simple about her life. she's quiet, then, while Jen talks.]
I should fix that. [she doesn't know why she's taking that responsibility as her own, but maybe it's just because she's here and opportunity is knocking. her fingers move along the edge, where the socket usually goes, and she can feel its presence even though it isn't there, which seems. appropriate.]
I'm going to get better about your arm. [her voice is gentle, but the sentiment is real, even if she doesn't feel like she's saying it exactly right.] I'm sorry.
You didn't do anything wrong. [ it's reflexive that she says that, as that's not entirely true. all those times Lina has shied away from her taking care of her arm, or taking off her prosthetic, did not go unnoticed. but this wasn't the time for calling her out. Jen wouldn't call anyone out unless they were being an absolute ass about it; even then, she'd likely just walk away. she's had those fights before and there was no winning anyone over. ]
It's like my therapist always said - people are just afraid of what they don't understand. [ and here she draws her hand down to grip Lina's shoulder. ] I don't... want you to ever know what it's like. But I'd like it if you were more comfortable with it.
[it's something Lina's aware of, don't worry. she's noticed, especially now that she's trying to get closer to Jen. she's noticed how bad she is at coexisting in more ways than one, and treating Jen like she's... something to be ashamed of isn't the right way to handle it.]
It might take a little while. [she may as well be honest about it. what else is she willing to be honest about...?] Is there. Anything you think I should understand about it?
[even though she's still being close with Jen, still gently touching her arm, she feels tense just asking that question.]
Mmn. I'm not going anywhere. [ which is a statement that could be interpreted a few different ways, yes, but Jen's intent is to make it clear that Lina has more than a while to get used to things.
there's something else important she ought to warn her about. but in light of everything that's already happened tonight there's just no desire to get into it. Jen rubs at her friend's arm with her hands, pulling the blanket up a bit more as she does so, so that she can get under it and continue the motion without exposing Lina to the relatively cool air. ]
[Lina's not that dumb. she smiles and presses her lips against Jen's jawline because it's the easiest part to reach and curls up under the blanket with her. this is so strange that it's even happening, but it feels even stranger that she still hasn't told Jen she likes being the little spoon. she'll do it one of these days.]
That's the second best idea I've heard all day. [ the first? well. that goes without saying. in this position Lina is more like a very warm blanket draped over Jen the way she is. but that's also very good.
is her neck going to hate her later when it's time to get up? probably. 300% worth it though. ]
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you did it wtg
[ Jen shrugged her other shoulder and turned her head to the side so she could watch what Lina was doing so it wouldn't feel as foreign to her. the muscles were built up from her training but oddly... firm. atrophy is a common side effect of all this but she obviously did a lot to keep herself from looking lopsided beyond the obvious. the skin itself is still damp with sweat but also quite rough despite that, especially now around the indentations the new socket leaves her with. they're barely visible with how long it's been off, but easy to feel. ]
Sorry. I'm not holding that worry against you. Just. Most people - okay pretty much no one goes near it unless they're my doctor or trainer.
hey so did they
I should fix that. [she doesn't know why she's taking that responsibility as her own, but maybe it's just because she's here and opportunity is knocking. her fingers move along the edge, where the socket usually goes, and she can feel its presence even though it isn't there, which seems. appropriate.]
I'm going to get better about your arm. [her voice is gentle, but the sentiment is real, even if she doesn't feel like she's saying it exactly right.] I'm sorry.
ayyyy
It's like my therapist always said - people are just afraid of what they don't understand. [ and here she draws her hand down to grip Lina's shoulder. ] I don't... want you to ever know what it's like. But I'd like it if you were more comfortable with it.
So... thank you.
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It might take a little while. [she may as well be honest about it. what else is she willing to be honest about...?] Is there. Anything you think I should understand about it?
[even though she's still being close with Jen, still gently touching her arm, she feels tense just asking that question.]
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there's something else important she ought to warn her about. but in light of everything that's already happened tonight there's just no desire to get into it. Jen rubs at her friend's arm with her hands, pulling the blanket up a bit more as she does so, so that she can get under it and continue the motion without exposing Lina to the relatively cool air. ]
Not tonight.
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[Lina's not that dumb. she smiles and presses her lips against Jen's jawline because it's the easiest part to reach and curls up under the blanket with her. this is so strange that it's even happening, but it feels even stranger that she still hasn't told Jen she likes being the little spoon. she'll do it one of these days.]
Let's just get some rest.
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is her neck going to hate her later when it's time to get up? probably. 300% worth it though. ]